When I say that the life of an entrepreneur is difficult and full of risk, I’d like to be saying that from the perspective of someone who has “arrived.” You know, the person sitting on the panel that everyone knows is a legend who tells war stories of the ‘days when…’ I’d like to speak of the struggles of running my own business from the perspective of someone who feels less threatened by the day-to-day decisions and turmoil of those first years.
But I’m not there. I’m very much in those first years that I will later come to speak of with a sick fondness as if this time were ‘the good ol’ days.’
I’ve gotta say, 98% of the time, I walk around in a genuine state of exhilaration for the ride I’m on. Then there’s the 2% that I’m not entirely sure I’m supposed to talk about. When I was just starting B!G DEAL BRANDING, it was ok to say this whole starting a business thing is hard. We were finding a groove, defining our direction and clarifying our purpose. It was acceptable to appear as though we were in process … because we were.
Here we are nearing our first year anniversary and I’ve gotta say, we’re completely kicking ass. We’re in that groove I only dreamed of when we first started. We have clients we love and are doing work we’re genuinely proud of. And just as things were starting to feel, dare I say … easy … we took another risk and began the process of filing as an S Corp. We’re officially awesome now. A legitimate business that has all kinds of contracts and percentages and titles attached. You could say we’re kind-of a B!G DEAL now. (yack yack yack) What I wasn’t prepared for was feeling stupid right when I was feeling so CEO-like. The CPA meetings, the tax break downs, the employee payroll, the endless signing of documents I don’t understand completely caught up with me and I froze.
As much as I say, “You won’t die when you take risks,” I think it’s important you know there are days when you feel like you totally will die the slow and painful death you fear most. There are days when you want to give up and nothing sounds better than returning to cubicle hell. At least there you wouldn’t have to worry about liability this, tax compliance that.
We all have bad days.
Here’s the difference between the people who give up and the people who don’t: They believe in their idea enough that they are willing to keep pushing even when it feels like they’re going to lose everything. (even if the only thing they’ll really lose is their pride)
I think that’s when you know you have something good … something worth fighting for. The days that feel overwhelming begin to serve as a reminder in seasons of comfortability that this thing is bigger than you gave it credit for. That it’s worth your continued investment. I’ve gotta say, I think those days are critical. They keep us real, keep us in check and keep us hungry to battle the complacency that’s inevitable when the thing that was once risky become the norm. I’m grateful for the opportunity to fight for something I believe in (even if there are days when I’d love someone else to do the fighting for me).
Keep on keepin’ on friends. You aren’t alone and this thing isn’t actually going to kill you. At least, not today.